What a weekend.
I know i'm a little bit slack on the post front but life is rather hectic at this point. Life has become one big juggling act. With college full time and two evenings left spare for me time blogging has been given a back seat. I started fresh on my blog not long ago as well so it all seems a little bit bare on here.
This weekend has changed my life forever. I know that's a bold statement, fairly out there but how things can change in a heartbeat.
God is forever blowing my mind and reminding me how huge he is. Even the biggest word is an understatement. We had the privilege of having Ps. Heidi Baker with us this weekend for a conference that ran over saturday and sunday. I have never seen church so packed in all my time being there. It was packed from front to back people had to sit on the ground.
At the beggining of the conference i was finding it extremely hard to break through and was getting frustrated that God didnt feel close, not even a whisper did i hear, and typically God has a sense of humor and hit me like a tonne of bricks right before the conference ended. Lets just say it was the turning over of a new leaf and the start of something completely amazing and brand new. God showed me exactly who i am and i feel on top of the world. My God is so good. He truly is indescribable. I had a word spoken over me and it was a long time coming, its one of those moments you pray for, for years and you just wonder when God will finally put it to rest. Fear in all parts was broken off my life last night and i have never felt so liberated. She also said that God was restoring all my dreams, right from when i was a little girl. Which in itself is so exciting. I sadly don't ever remember being a little girl. Probably because i chose for so long to forget about my past because it was tormenting. So i am excited to see the dreams God reignites. I know two things are for sure, God wants to use me in the area of Creative Industries, wether it be my love of Music, Graphic Design, Interiors & anything i can get my crafty hands on, God just wants me to use what is in my hands and i pray he will always show me what i can do. I pray every day that as i do my course that he would orchestrate my hands and that the work i produce would be all for his glory. I also know God has called me to be a revivalist! And I am SO excited to see God sweep through this nation! Every nation! God use me! I don't want no to be an option when i answer you! I was praying last night and god gave me the following scripture:
1THEN HE [my guide] brought me again to the door of the house [of the Lord--the temple], and behold, waters issued out from under the threshold of the temple toward the east, for the front of the temple was toward the east; and the waters came down from under, from the right side of the temple, on the south side of the altar.2Then he brought me out by way of the north gate and led me around outside to the outer gate by the way that faces east, and behold, waters were running out on the right side. 3And when the man went on eastward with the measuring line in his hand, he measured a thousand cubits, and he caused me to pass through the waters, waters that were ankle-deep.4Again he measured a thousand cubits and caused me to pass through the waters, waters that reached to the knees. Again he measured a thousand cubits and caused me to pass through the waters, waters that reached to the loins.5Afterward he measured a thousand, and it was a river that I could not pass through, for the waters had risen, waters to swim in, a river that could not be passed over or through.6And he said to me, Son of man, have you seen this? Then he led me and caused me to return to the bank of the river.7Now when I had returned, behold, on the bank of the river were very many trees on the one side and on the other.8Then he said to me, These waters pour out toward the eastern region and go down into the Arabah (the Jordan Valley) and on into the Dead Sea. And when they shall enter into the sea [the sea of putrid waters], the waters shall be healed and made fresh.9And wherever the double river shall go, every living creature which swarms shall live. And there shall be a very great number of fish, because these waters go there that [the waters of the sea] may be healed and made fresh; and everything shall live wherever the river goes.10The fishermen shall stand on [the banks of the Dead Sea]; from En-gedi even to En-eglaim shall be a place to spread nets; their fish shall be of very many kinds, as the fish of the Great or Mediterranean Sea.11But its swamps and marshes will not become wholesome for animal life; they shall [as the river subsides] be left encrusted with salt and given over to it.12And on the banks of the river on both its sides, there shall grow all kinds of trees for food; their leaf shall not fade nor shall their fruit fail [to meet the demand]. Each tree shall bring forth new fruit every month, [these supernatural qualities being] because their waters came from out of the sanctuary. And their fruit shall be for food and their leaves for healing.
I'm just so desperate for more of the Holy Spirit to have his place in my heart. To make himself at home right inside of me. Have your way God. Its all or nothing from here on in.